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Quezon City, Philippines
Paramore and Linkin Park fan. I still support OPM. I always do.

Stop this song..

Music lover.
This is my life.
And I won't be able to give up on this.

Red has been my ultimate favorite color. For me, it stands for passion and dedication.

I am also a band lover..
Especially, Paramore..
They're cool, awesome,funny,excellent,dedicated..
The personality that this band have is being humble..
And that is the main reason why this band stand out for me.. They know how to jive-in to their fans..
They know how to appreciate..
So they are my number one =)

I can describe myself to you as an extraordinary..
(not the one with a third eye's or sixth sense or something)
what I mean is.. I can be as lovable as teddy bears..
I can also be as dangerous as fire..
I can be your best-est friend and worst-est enemy..

Follow me and let us start a new relationship out of this :)

Saturday, October 16, 2010

I'm okay but not alright.

I can say that I'm okay but not fully recovered.

This past few months, I blogged about him, only about him.
I'm in love, I'm light, I'm in cloud 9 but I realize sometimes, we have to wake up and face reality, face the consequences for taking the risk, face the pain though it hurts like hell.

I know I don't have the right to demand nor assume from him but as a human I guess, I still have the right to say "it hurts", it feels like I was hit by a car and praying not to wake up again but unfortunately when I opened my eyes... I'm at the hospital.. Curing myself..
I thought I was okay, it's fine with me as if nothing happens, I'm not affected but at the end of the day, I will think of no one but him.

Ang hirap lang kasi wala akong pinanghahawakan. Walang ikaw. Walang ako. Walang TAYO. Walang mga salitang "ingat ka", I miss you" at "I love you". Kahit ilang beses kong sabihing "KAYA KO" hindi ko pa rin kaya at hindi ko pa rin kayang kayanin na lang muna. Ganito pala pag nagmahal ka ng totoo, yung lahat binigay mo pero hindi ka pwedeng umasa ng kapalit, hindi ka pwedeng umiyak, hindi ka rin pwedeng magreklamo.. Kasi ginusto mo yan.

Maybe one day, I won't anymore think of you nor say anything about you; saying your name will be the hardest thing to remember and I'm hoping one day, if our paths will ever cross again, at least saying "what's your name again?" will be my lightest day because for once, I'll forget everything I went through when I'm deeply in love with you. I don't blame you nor the girl you like, you know who I blame? MYSELF! For letting me fall into you, no, fall deeply in love with you. I'm not perfect, I can't even say I'm intelligent, I can't compete to her, I'm not even pretty but I have one word to describe me, I'M UNIQUE. :-)

Iba ako sakanya, sakanila. Kung kaya nila, siguro nga hindi ko kaya pero alam ko sa sarili kong yun ang susi para mas kakayanin ko at lagpasan pa sila. Kumbaga sa daan, pakanan lahat sila, pakaliwa ako. Mahirap, malayo, maraming harang, walang short cut pero alam kong nasa tamang daan parin ako. Di ba nga.. Mas minamahal ang mga taong pinahihirapan? :-)

I know God love me because He put a barrier between you and me. At this point in time, I learn to value myself more, learn to love myself more and learn to smile more often.

BEING GREAT IS GOOD BUT BEING UNIQUE IS BETTER.Ü

Hope you find your happiness. :-)
And I'm hoping this is not the last time I will feel this, because falling in love can give you lightness within, though it will give you pain and heartaches but at the end of the day you'll see yourself NEW, FRESH and READY AGAIN TO FACE THE DAY. :-)
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