Be better than me babe.lol

Alright. I know it's so childish..
But..
What else can I do?
I'm really pissed with this stupid little girl..

She's a little xerox machine! lol
What I mean is.. She's copying everything..
No. Not actually everything..
Some.. yea. some of what I have && some of what I want..
Isn't that embarrassing?

I was actually observing her with what will she do if I did these and that..
And yes!
She copied it and I'm so pissed!!!

Alam ko naman na lahat tayo may karapatang gawin to o yun..
Pero alam mo yun NAKAKAINIS?
Yun yon..
Aaaaaa!!!
Hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin pero..
Nakakaasar lang talaga..
Pero minsan..
Nakakatawa din kasi..
Alam mo yung may nagaadmire sayo..
And they want also to be like you..
But sometimes..
It's irritating..

An old issue becoming so new now..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VJXiE5JjQVs

Alright. Another "satanic symbolism" from somebody..

Sayyyyy! I don't know what they want..
I don't even believe them..
I'm not being so narrow minded here or something..

I just don't want to believe them though they do have proofs..
It's just that I know the band and what ever they'll say is more important than anyone..

"I am satan and I can be a bull fighter"

Huh? I don't even believe how those words pop-out!

These sign..
\m/
every rock star using these!
So, I won't anymore be shocked if they're using it as well.
They are a rock band..
So, if this is a sign of satan..
It can also means all rock bands are satan..
And a part of Illuminati?

I will never believe anyone unless hayley or anyone in the band will say that they are a part or they are satan..

You can call me blind for not seeing those proofs but what important to me is what Paramore will be saying..

I'll remain a Paramore lover! :)
I'm a fan so I'll continue supporting them..

Whether they are this or that..

Just saying..

From a wanderer..

Why people always changing their minds?
Changing their minds so fast!
Or like..
Changing something in their own body..
Or personality..

And why can't we be so contented with what we have?
Well, as for me.. As for MY own lifestyle..
I am really not so contented with what I have..
Not contented with having this or having that..
I'm kinda adventurous so I want to try everything! :)

Just like this example..


you do have a straight hair, then, you want it to become curl..
but if you have a curly hair you'll make it so straight..
haha!
Not just that..

People that have a fair complexion they want to be white?
Then, the white one.. Wanted to become fair..
So they'll try tanning..

Why if you're fat.. you'll do everything to become so skinny?
Why skinny people wanted to be fat?

Why girl wanted to be a guy?
Why other guy wanted to be a girl?

Why short people wanted to be so tall?
Why tall people wanted to become short?

Why famous artists wanted to go back being ordinary citizen?
Why ordinary citizens wanted to become famous?

Why black hair have to dye to become blonde?
Why blonde wanted to have a black hair?

Why singers wanted to be a dancers?
Why dancers wanted to be singers?

Why does people wanted to have tattoo?
While people who does have tattoo wanted it to be removed?

Why chinky eyed people wanted to have a bigger and circled eye?
While those people who blessed with a big and circle eyes wanted to have a chinky eyes?

Why some people wanted to have a piercings?
Why some people not?

I'm just wandering..

hmm.. -.-

A new fan :)

Alright.
I've known this band for like about..
A year ago..
I honestly don't know some of their songs..
And honestly not a big fan..
But I DO like them :)
They're somewhat like Paramore..
Alright. I'm not comparing them or something..
I like them both..
Though I love Paramore way better..

Anyway, I found sierra kusterbeck so hot! :)
She's pretty, gorgeous, awesome, and a great singer as well..
They rule! :)

I love their songs...
Specially, past praying for && Whisperer :)

I want to know them MORE! :)
I think I'll love them as much as I love Paramore now! :D

Brown eyed girl..

When I was a little I dreamt of having a blue and stunning eyes..
Even until now.. I wanted it..
But since I am a Filipino I don't have a chance having those..

I am a brown eyed girl..
One of those typical girl who have it..
At first, I didn't like it..
Until I knew the real meaning of having a brown eyes..

And here it is,

Love to make new friends..
Kind and polite..
Can anyone laugh or cheer them up..
Straight up warriors, not the one to mess with..
Will do anything for that special person..

"Your eyes always reflect the same emotion as your smile. You aren't a liar, and don't try to hide the true you with a fake smile. You are out there, and, overall, a happy person. You are brown eyes"

This is one of the most prettiest thing I've ever read..
Hella true.. And suits me! :)

I got this after I took the quiz from FB..
Because I am so bored..
How do you lie?

"You lie with your eyes. They say the eyes are the window to the soul, but you protect your soul to the bitter end. You can control the amount of information your eyes give to people. When you lie, you are very convincing because your eyes seem to agree with your words. You can say so much with very little actual talking. People trust you, even if they shouldn't, but it takes a lot for you to trust anyone. When you gaze into peoples' eyes, it is an intense stare. People often look away because when they look into your eyes, they feel like you know all of there secrets; almost like you can read their minds. However, when you do trust someone enough to show them your soul, they get lost in your eyes and cannot look away. People who lie with their eyes are the most convincing liars.

You lie to protect people from the world, but you also lie to protect yourself. You like to keep the focus on others rather than yourself. At times, your friends will get on the subject of you and realize how little they actually know about you. You are good at slyly changing the subject, but there are people out there who recognize this behavior. These people are both your weakness, and your greatest friends. It takes a very understanding, intelligent person to understand what goes on inside your head. You often will hang out with people who don't quite understand what you are doing because you feel safer knowing no one is inside your head. You, however, are inside everyone's' head. You know their feelings and motives and lie to manipulate them into doing the smart thing. You block yourself from others who think like you, but let them inside your head every once in a while, and you will find that it is worth the risk."

The meaning of this all really suits me..

I love making friends..
Making new friends.. =)
It's a hobby for me..Ü

I am kind for people who are also kind to me..
But not to mess up with..

I love making people laugh..
I cheer them up when they're kinda sad..
Or needs a shoulder to lean on..
It's always my pleasure doing those kind of things..

And most of all I AM A HAPPY AND JOLLY PERSON :)

Brick by boring brick.. Mind Controlling?

http://vigilantcitizen.com/?p=2917

Alright.
The moment I saw this link I become a little curious..

It says there that Brick by boring brick is a mind controlling video..
Well, for me I can't say that isn't right.. It is his opinion, that's what he can say about the video..

Everybody can say anything they want to say.. That is they're opinions..
I just don't know why this Vigilant Citizen can say those..
I'm a bit curious..
I am not starting a fight here guys..
Since he state his perceptions..

Here's mine..

Brick by boring brick is a very meaningful song..
Alice in Wonderland inspired..
Did I say it right?
I just don't know if this really a mind controlling one..
Cuz it doesn't control mine..
Or.. I misunderstood what he wanted to say?

Anyway, Brick by boring brick is about a kid who wanted to escape from her tragic world..
And of course everyone of us wanted to be in fairytale..
I mean, to experience fairytale..
So, she's just imagining of a happy moment..
She wanted to become free..
She wanted to become somebody else and or like a fairy just like Alice..
But in the middle of the video you can see that the whole thing becomes dark..
Then, the kid starts to run because a monster (yea. whatever you call it) wanted to caught her..
And for me..
My perception to that is..
That monster represents her problems, her tragic in life, her trials, her dark side that she NEEDS to face..
The monster wanted to say to her that she cannot run from her problems..
She needs to face it and solve it with her strength and courage..

"If its not real you can't hold it in your hands..
You can't feel it with your heart..
And I won't believe it..
But if it is true
You can see it with your eyes
Oh even in the dark
And this is where I want to be"

Everyone needs to face his/her problems..
No matter how hard it is..
No matter how impossible it is to be solved..
You gotta give it a try..
And that is what I THINK the band wanted to tell us..
I mean the song..
As well as the video..

It is just a matter of believing in your own or depending on others..

It is also between the reality and the unconsciousness of the people..

I hope it helps..
And not to confuse your minds.. :)

JUST SAYIN'

Bored. Survey will do.

Alright. Got this survey?
Uh-oh.. I don't know if this is really a survey or somethin'
Well, anyway.. Hope you guys should answer this too..
It's fun especially if you're bored.. lol



WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage -- water.. :p I'm not anymore drinking soda's tho..
2. last phone call -- jessica
3. last text message -- ashen
4. last song you listened to -- My number one- Paramore (okay now, it's pretty obvious I'm a fan! lol)
5. last time you cried -- aaaaaaaa..... A year ago.. haha!

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice -- NO :)
7. been cheated on -- yes.. Well, anyway.. He's an idiot so it doesn't matter..lol
8. kissed someone & regretted it -- yes! haha
9. lost someone special -- yes..
10. been depressed -- yea..
11. been drunk and threw up -- lol. no.. not yet.. haha

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. red
13. black
14. orange

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend -- yes! :D And it feels so great
16. Fallen out of love - No, cuz I didn't fall in love yet tho..
17. Met someone who changed your life -- not yet..
19. Found out who your true friends were? -- not yet
20. Found out someone was talking about you -- yeaaaa..
21. Kissed anyone on your fb friend's list -- hahaha!! the truth is.. YES! haha! you gotta find out who he is..lol

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your fb friends list do you know in real life -- all of them :)
24. Do you have any pets-- no.. I have none..
25. Do you want to change your name -- YES! hahaha! But it can't be it's possible..
26. What did you do for your last birthday --I sleep. haha! Mi madre don't want to celebrate it so, I've to agree with her.. Whether I like it or not..
28. What were you doing at midnight last night -- txting..
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for -- Uh.. Paramore's come back! :D
30. Last time you saw your Mother --A while ago.. I'm always seeing her. haha
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? -- None. I'm pretty contented about what's happening to my life right now..
32. What are you listening to right now - Telephone.. Man! this is so epic!
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom -- No.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now -- Nothing.. ATM.. But let see later. hahalol
35. Most visited webpage -- Paramore.net
37. Nicknames -- jheng.. :)
38. Relationship Status -- Taken but available. hahalol :D
39. Zodiac sign -- taurus.
40. He or She? -- She.
41. Elementary? -- Holy Spirit Elem. School
43. High school -- New Era High School
44. Hair colour -- Brown.
45. Long or short -- Long.
46. Height -- 5'1''.
47. Do you have a crush on someone? -- yes! :)
49. Piercings -- ears, tounge, and nose.. :L
50. Tattoos -- none.
51. Righty or lefty -- lefty.. haha! WTH is that word.. Lefty uh.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery-- No.. None..
53. First piercing -- Ears.
54. First best friend -- Regeline&&Girlie! they're both awesome! :)
55. First sport you joined -- Volleyball.
56. First vacation -- Ilocos! :D :D Awesome!
58. First pair of trainers -- OH no.. I forgot..

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating -- later! :)
60. Drinking -- later as well.. :))
61. I'm about to -- finish everything now.. :)
62. Listening to -- baby- JB awesome! :D
63. Waiting for -- me to finish this survey.. haha! creepy.. I'm waiting for myself lol

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? -- Yea.. But.. Only 2
65. Get Married? -- Yea. Well, Who wants to be an old maid? lol
66. Career? -- this should be related to what course I took :) or maybe, a model? hahalol!

WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes?-- Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses? -- Hugsssss..
69. Shorter or taller? -- Taller.. But I have 2 guys.. they're not tall tho..
70. Older or Younger? -- Older. But not as older as 5 or 6 years..
71. Romantic or spontaneous? -- Spontaneous :)
72. Nice stomach or nice arms? -- Nice arms.. Cos I don't have one..lol
73. Sensitive or loud? -- Loud. :)
74. Hook-up or relationship? -- Relationship.
75. Trouble-maker or hesitant? -- None..

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger? -- No. haha! that's weird..
77. Drank hard liquor? -- yes..
78. Lost glasses/contacts -- No.. Not yet..
79. Sex on first date -- HELL NO! Who would have?
80. Broken someone's heart -- IDK.. Maybe?
81. Had your own heart broken --hahaa :)) Maybe..
82. Been arrested -- No.. I'm not a criminal. haha
83. Turned someone down -- Yea :) Many times.. So, Am I the bad person here?
84. Cried when someone died -- Oh yea.
85. Fallen for a friend? -- Yes! And I don't know how to stop..

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself -- OF COURSE..
87. Miracles -- yea.. Maybe?
88. Love at first sight -- yes.. Sort of? haha
89. Heaven -- Yes.
90. Santa Claus -- haha! My mum was santa! lol
91. Kiss on the first date -- No..
92. Angels -- Yup.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf? -- NO..
95. Did you sing today? -- Everytime budd!
96. Ever cheated on somebody? -- Haha! I did once, but it's kinda weird.. So, I won't do it again..lol
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? -- High school days.. 2nd year to be specific.. Uh, 'cause I want my bestfriend to comeback.. :(
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? -- October 23,2009 :(
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? -- Yes.. Cause I'm afraid of getting hurt.. So sappy. lol
100. Posting this as 100 Truths about You? --Haha! Now! A proof that I really got this from survey's on FB.. lol

Don't kill me tonight..

Alright. I heard this song in You Tube a while ago..

This was the Back Ground song of Josh && Hayley's rare pics..
I just notice their sweetness way before they broke up..
And I wonder, why they broke up? -.-

They are the perfect couple I've ever seen..
Well, I'm not against
Jenna && Josh as well as Hayley && Chad..

It's just that they're so perfect together..
Now, I got this site info..
That they broke up because they don't want people to know them as Hayley & Josh in a relationship or something..
They do want Paramore to gain fame because of their music not because of them two..
Well, I have nothing against it..
I respect their reasons anyway..

And wanted to say best wishes for the soon Mrs. Farro..
Jenna :)
And to Josh as well..


I got this from Paramore.net
Posted by: v

This was an interview from Kerrang Magazine..
I won't be posting everything..
I'll be getting some of I think most epic questions && epic answer.. =)
Let's started out this..

On Brand New Eyes the lyrics to Looking Up – ‘could have given up so easily, I was a few cheap shots away from the end of me’ – suggest that you could have quit Paramore. With hindsight, how close do you think you were from walking away?

“Well, in hindsight, it feels a bit less dramatic than it probably really was, but I guess that’s the same with any situation. When we were writing that song it was one of the first songs we wrote for the record that wasn’t angry or mad, so when I sang the first verse to the dudes, it was almost like ‘Ahhh... deep breath... finally we can breathe’. There were a lot of things I said in the songs that I never said to the guys straight up, so when we finally wrote a song it was like, ‘Okay, good, now we can finally move on’. Those are some of my favourite lyrics ever, because it’s almost like we’d come full circle from the start of the song writing process. Now I’m so psyched when we play it every night, I feel like it’s proof that the song is so real because we’re standing up on the stage, happier than we’ve ever been.

Songs like Playing God suggest that you’re no-one’s pushover now...

“Playing God took on a different area of frustration where it had more to do with my faith. I felt really judged and I was feeling like people didn’t know me, and they don’t want to know me. I felt like everyone was looking at me like I was less than them.”

You recently went public about your former three year relationship with Josh Farro. Why was it so important to you both to keep that relationship a secret in the first place?

“What’s funny about it is that it became a bigger deal for us than it would have been if it had been out the whole time. Really it was about us being in control of one aspect of out crazy lives, Being really young we were totally dumb and didn’t know what we were doing and we were, like, ‘Let’s now tell anyone, let’s keep it a secret’. But then it became such a burden. It sucked because we couldn’t be ourselves. I was 16 years old, and it was so stupid: we weren’t in high school, we were away from our parents, and yet we were still putting all these weird rules on our lives because of other people.”

So there’s no awkwardness between you now?

“No. Josh and I are better friends than we would have ever been just dating each other. And in writing songs we just have a connection that you don’t find with anyone else.”

What’s the craziest rumour you’ve read about yourself online?

“it’s still the ‘Hayley is pregnant’ rumour. That’s been going on since our band ever started. Apparently I’ve been pregnant at least five different times that I didn’t know about! It’s nuts! The last time I heard it was about nine months ago, So I guess I’d have had the kid by now! Someone was saying, ‘Yeah, Hayley’s pregnant and all the guys from New Found Glory are coming to Tennesee to aid in her pregnancy’. And then I was getting engaged and married – it was just crazy.”

Speaking of New Found Glory, what has Chad brought to your life?

“Without being super detailed, I definitely feel I can be 100 per cent myself with Chad. If I’m having a shitty day because something happened on tour, even if I can’t put it to words, he gets it, because he’s been there. The coolest thing is that we’re friends and we love each other. I don’t know what I would have done without him when I really didn’t have any of the other guys in the band to talk to.”

No regrets then that you didn’t go through college or got a more normal job?

“No. I don’t think I would make it in college, I think I’d be awful at that. Regret is useless, I don’t regret anything.”

And that's it! :D

Para-Thrilla in Manila

"I don't want to wait another 5years to come back"--hayley

And we don't want to wait another million years to watch you guys performing live! :D


March 09,2010


It was a night to remember..
Paramore rocks Manila..

It was so awesome!
I feel so starstruck!

They rock my night!

As you can see.. Hayley's so gorgeous! I'm willing to trade anything just to touch her hands! hahalol
But uh no, I'm not kidding..
I want her! :)

Jeremy Davis is so damn HOT!
He's really stunning! Wohoo!

And I would like you to meet my Parawhores friends..
We call ourselves parawhores right before the concert though this tag name "parawhore" didn't start to us.. We used it to just show our support to the band :D

I am really looking forward to their come back :D
Hope they will.. *fingers tied*

Can love really conquers all?

I was once in love with this guy.. He's the perfect guy for me.. A prince for a waiting princess as they say, he cares for me, he loved me, he's the one every girls looking for.. I experience fairytale since the day I met him..
I feel heaven every time he'll be touching my hand, my heart beats so fast the moment he's around..

He treated me like I'm the luckiest girl in town, he's always making a joke just to see me smile whenever I'm sad, He's just so perfect for me.. But not with me..

A month before my high school graduation, I was shocked by his coldness to me.. What I mean is he's not anymore talking to me.. I asked his friends and they all answer me the same stupid answer.. "we don't know, sorry"

I was so depressed.. I don't even have a single idea what I did for him not to talk to me..

And then one day, a concern friend told me everything.. every single detail..

She said "he fell for you.. he couldn't explain it but he thought there's something special between the two of you.. But you hurt him.."

I ask her how did I hurt him?

Did I hurt him?
Did I did something stupid to hurt his feelings?
Am I the bad person here?

I don't know..
There's no idea inside me..
So I ask my friend..

HOW?

"for having an affair to someone else.. He loves you so much.. You're the last girl who made him laugh so hard since he broke up with his girl"


Alright. I made him laugh, I made him smile, I made him happy..
Is that all the reason why he fell in love with me?
Why does he have reasons?

Graduation day..

My friend planned for a short talk for me and for him..
But she fail..
This guy doesn't want to talk to me.. ANYMORE

I got hurt...
I mean, he's so important to me..
I began to love him..
He became a part of me..
But he refused to.

I know it's my fault..
I'm having an affair to someone else but he let me do that..
I thought he doesn't like me that's why I decide to have an affair to someone else..

I just don't want be called like "assuming" or something..
I should have take the risk..
There's no wrong in doing that anyway..
But I let myself be afraid in doing it.

I'm stupid..
I'm numb..
I'm insane..

I should let him speak for his self!
In the first place, I should believe for what he says not for others'

I sacrifice everything to have him back..
To have his feelings back..
I give everything up..
My friends..
My own happiness..

Now I know..
Love can really conquers all..
Though not all relationship has a happy ending..
Some times you got to make it happen..

He's my number one..
He's my hero..
He's my prince..
He's the only one for me..
He's my only exception..
He's everything for me..

But now he's just a dream..
He's my beautiful nightmare..

And I will never admit that I loved you..