Time Machine

Ang daming bagay sa mundo na minsan pinagsisihan ko..
Tulad ng bakit ko ba ginawa to..
O bakit ko ba sinabi ang mga ito..

Time Machine..
Matagal ko na rin inisip na sana may magimbento nito..
Para kaya tayong ibalik nun sa nakaraan..
Tapos gagawin kong tama lahat ng mga ginawa kong mali noon..

Alam ko.. Na mali.. Mali yung magsisisi ka..
Pero minsan sa buhay ko.. Nakagawa ako ng mga bagay na hindi ko dapat talaga ginawa.. Siguro.. Nagawa ko nalang yun dahil kasi "defense mechanism" kung baga.. Para na rin hindi ako masaktan..
O hindi ako makasakit.

Bakit nga ba ang hirap magpatawad?
Natanong ko na rin to noon pa..
Bakit ba hindi ako mapatawad ng taong naging importante sa akin..
Yung pinahalagahan ko..
Ang dami kong tanong sa isip ko noon..
Na sana hindi ko nalang ginawa to..
Sana hindi ko nalang sinabi to..
Pero wala na.. Nagawa ko na. Nabitawan ko na.
Nasira na lahat.

Hanggang ngayon hindi niya pa ko napapatawad..
Hindi niya pa rin ako kinakausap.
Naintindihan ko siya.
Inintindi ko siya.
Pero sa haba ng panahon na nakalipas napagod na rin akong humingi ng tawad..
Kung natiis niya ko.. Tingin ko matitiia ko rin naman siya.
Basta nagawa ko na ang parte ko.. tama na yun. Db?

Kung may Time Machine siguro..
Binalik ko na ang panahon kung san masaya ko kasama mga kaibigan ko..
Binalik ko na yung panahon na naramdaman ko ang salitang pag-ibig at sa parteng yun gagawin ko ng tama lahat ng mali kong nagawa..
Tapos siguro happy enig na yun noh?

*sigh* Sana nga..
May ganung klaseng gamit db?
Kaso wala..
Kaya..
Make the most out of it.

Minsan lang dumating ang mga taong magmamahal at mamahalin tayo ng boung puso..
Wag natin masyadong pansinin yung mga taong naninira at gusto tayong sirain dahil kung papansinin natin sila at bibigyan pa ang panahon..
Magiging katulad lang din nila tayo..
bitter..
pathetic..
and unloved..

Evidence

As all we know..
Evidence is a proof that you made a crime.. Isn't it?

And if you happen to know Urbandub (a Filipino indie band) you can actually relate to what will I wanted to share..

Third Parties...
In all honesty, hindi ko pa nararanasan ang maloko.. Manloko siguro?
Pero.. Nagtataka lang ako..
Bakit may mga taong kailangan pang manloko para sumaya?
Meron nga ba talagang mga taong hindi marunong makuntento?
O minsan ayaw lang talaga nila makuntento?

Teka..
Una, para saan ba ang kabit?
Pangalawa, ano bang nakukuha nila dito?
At pangatlo, yayaman ba sila dun?

Kung ako ang tatanungin..
EWAN KO..

Aaminin ko, nanloko na din ako..
Hindi ko alam kung bakit ko yun nagawa..
O kung may mga bagay bang nagtulak sakin para gawin yun..
Sagot......
WALA
Nagtanong tanong ako sa mgakaibigan ko na naranasan at nakararanas na ang magloko.. Kumbaga sila yung nanloloko..

Para sa unang tanong..
Para san ba ang kabit?
Sabi nila..
"Wala lang, out of curiosity lang siguro kaya ko nagawa yun.. Kung tutuusin.. Hindi masaya pero parang astig kasi.."

Sa pangalawang tanong..
Ano ang nakukuha nila dito?
"Parang ganun din sa una.. Wala.. Parang lalaki ka kasi talaga tignan pag marami kang gf db? Aminin mo man o hindi.. Yun at yun ang lalabas.."

At sa huling tanong..
Yayaman ba sila dun?
"Kung pera ang usapan.. Hindi syempre.. Kami pa nga lugi dami naming paggagastusan.. Pero kung sa paastigan lang din naman.. Oo naman! Alam mo sa panahon ngayon wala ka ng makikitang one woman man db?

Pagkatapos kong itanong ang mga yon..
Naisip ko..
May punto siyang tama.. Pero mas nkalalamang pa rin yung punto na mali..

Bilang babae.. Na maldalas maloko..
Masakit para sakin na marinig ang mga salitang yun sa isang lalaki lalo na't kaibigan ko n pa ang nagsabi ng mga yun..
Nakakalungkot kasi pwedeng isang araw may babaeng iiyak dahil sakanya..

Bakit nga ba pag ang lalaki ang nagloloko..
Okay lang..
Normal lang yun..
Parte ng pagiging lalaki ang ganun..
Pero pag ang babae ang nagloloko..
Malandi..
Makati..
Walang kwenta..
Pabaya..

Gusto ko lang malaman..
Bakit ang unfair ng mundo?
Pag ginawa mo to..
Mali sa ibang tao..
Huhusgahan ka kagad kung anong ginawa mo..
Na dapat ang tinatanong sayo ay kung bakit mo iyon nagawa..

Babae ako at alam ko kung gano kasakit ang lokohin at iwanan ng lalaki..
Lalo na pag mahal na mahal mo na siya..
Pero minsan wala ka ng magagawa kasi hindi na ikaw yung mahal niya..
Hindi na ikaw yung dating hinahatid niya..
Hindi na rin ikaw yung dating kasabay niya sa pagkain..
Ang mas masakit..
Malalaman mo na dalawa pala kayo sa puso niya..

Minsan naiinis na rin ako sa mga taong nagpapakatanga kahit ala nilang may iba na yung taong mahal nila..
(Patawad sa matatamaan)
Pero hindi ba..
Napakaraming tao sa mundo..
Hindi karapat-dapat iyakan ang mga taong nanloloko..
Hindi sila yung tipo ng taong dapat sambahin at balikan..

Masakit iwan ang taong nagmahal sayo..
Yun nangako na hindi ka niya iiwan..
Yung nagsabing forever tayo..
Yung taong kasama mo mangarap at bumuo ng pangarap para sainyo..

Pero maniwala ka man o hindi..
Mas masakit pag nalaman mong bawat pangakong binibitawan niya sayo ay sabay din nyang binibitawan iyon sa isa pang tao..
Hindi ba?

Maraming tao sa mundo..
Minsan kailangan lang natin ilibot ng mabuti ang ating mga mata..
Kasi hindi natin alam yung taong hinihintay natin nandyan lang pala..
Hindi naman natin kailangan magmadali..
Lahat dumarating..
Sa tamang panahon at sa tamang pagkakataon..

Always the friend BUT never the girl.. Ironically true.

"I've known you for so long you are a friend of mine.. But is this all we'd ever be? I've loved you ever since you are a friend of mine but babe, is this all we ever could be?"

Another song that suits my dilemma this past few days..
It's so hard to fall in love.. But it's even harder to fall in love with your friend :(

April 17,2010~
We both went to a Lamb of God Main Act Concert.. PULP summer slam to be exact, with his cousin and our mutual friend..
I enjoy the evening..
I enjoy being with him..
But what I mostly enjoy is how he show his concern to me..

He asks me, "hey, you okay?"
"are you tired?"
"are you stressed?"

Alright. I know it's so normal for a friend to ask those..
But if your going to ask me if it's normal.. Well, no. 'cause I like him.. And every day that pass I'm liking him even more.

Okay.. When the concert starts.. I knew it was going to be a riot. lol! 'Cause it's Lamb of God so there will gonna be moshpits!
I know I can handle those stupid ass but he still cares for me..
He hugs me whenever those stupid ass push us and kick our butt..
He gives me air to breathe.. He even hold my hand.. :(

I prayed for that night NOT to end..
But sooner it'll end..

After that sweat and rocking first song performance of L.O.G..
He touches my face then smile..
I swear! That'll be the happiest moment of my life! :)

But after that rocking night I wonder.. "does he have the heart too?"
Or it's me again putting a lot of meaning into it?
I can't help myself but to wonder..
So, I texted my friend to ask what is this guy wanted to tell..
And I was disappointed when he answered me..
"you're still the friend I've known.. Don't mind what he's doin' I mean, the sweetness he's showing you. You're just a friend. Remember that! Put that in your mind!"

I wanted to cry.. But I can't. If I cry.. He might ask me what's wrong.. So, I hold my tears and try to smile and make some jokes..
Can you imagine how painful I went through? :((
It was HELL!

Then, the moment some stupid ass push me..
He hold my hand but this time.. I let go.
It'll hurt me more if I continue believing that he also has a heart.
It'll hurt me more if I continue believing that he wanted to be with me.

I want him.. God knows I really love him.
But it's too painful for me to admit it.

I'm afraid of the possibilities that he might be distant from me..
I don't want it to happen.. :L

Now, if I would be given a chance I'll shout in front of him "I LOVE YOU" :(

I guess, this saying is true..
Always the friend and never the girl.. :(

Temporary

"'Cuz anyone can see that this is only permanent.. Temporary So don't hurt me this time.. And it's all a GAME but I know we'll stay the same But repetition ends in failure And every time I see it in your eyes.. When repetition ends we'll start over"

this was my favorite lines in Paramore song Temporary..
the moment I hear this song..
I was like..
"Oh no! It suits me.. It suits everything about me.. About what's happening to me right now"

So, I use to love this another song from Paramore..
It's Demo though.. And it's so 2004..

Alright. Off topic..
Last night, I went to Misty's place to celebrate his birthday..
I enjoyed it.
I loved it.
And I am actually excited to meet some new people..

I was sharing my experience last April 9 in some of my friends who unfortunately didn't get a chance to join us..
Then, I open again the topic about me & the guy with me on the said date..
I swear! I still can't get over!

How I wish I could tell him how much he mean to me..
How much I wanted him..
How much I want him to be with me..

I know, it isn't right but what am I gonna do.. If he's the only reason why this heart not afraid to try and to love again?

I was once hurt by the person who means so much to me..
Every time I'll take a ride then accidentally seeing his house..
I can't help myself but to reminisce everything we've had..
I know, I'm stupid letting him go..
I know I hurt him.. And hurt myself as well..

And now, my heart says, "I'm now ready to fall in love with him.."
And my mind says "but don't choose him.. He's not the one"

What now? Am I going to follow my heart? Or to follow my mind?
I don't know what to do..

If I continue loving him..
I'll end up hurting my heart..
Hurting my entire self..

"baka naman walalang yun sakanya..
Binigyan mo lang ng meaning?
Wag mo msyadong isipin yun..
Kasi baka masaktan ka lang"

"Ako din ganyan.. Akala ko wala na.. Pero nung nakita ko siya ulit.. Bumalik.. At hanggang ngayon.. Mahal na mahal ko pa rin siya.. Subukan ko mang pigilan nasasaktan naman ako."

This was my friend's statement about my situation..
Did I really give such a malicious meaning to those things he did to me?
Or he also has a heart?
I bravely asked my bff about him and ___..
And she briefly explain to me the whole story..

"Hindi sila nung _____.. Nililigawan niya lang yun.. Parang ayaw pa nga nung girl eh, pero mahalaga na rin daw si _____ sakanya.. Hindi naman daw maganda yung girl.. Nagustuhan nya lang talaga.. M.U yata sila ngayon.. You know, just like any other boy,girl situation.. They value each other that big but NO COMMITMENTS."

When I heard her saying there are NO COMMITMENTS going on between the two..
I was really happy but then, a bit sad when she told me that "they value each other so much"
How I wish he value me as much as he's valuing _____ :(

But if he's really be happy with that girl.. I'll have nothing against it.
It'll make me so sad and depressed tho..

Everything in these world is Temporary..
Learn to value those people who loves you..
'Cause they may not be there the next day..
So, love them as much as God loves you :)

As of now, I'll just teach myself how to love him unconditionally..
Meaning, I'll love him without expecting anything in return..
I know it'll hurt me..
But that's the irony of life..

you'll love but not be love or you'll be love but you don't love
as irony as
fish can't fly and birds can't swim.. :L

He'll still be the reason why my heart chooses to love again..
Nothing more.. Nothing less..

The route..

Jessica's place- McDonald- San Mateo- Montalban Rizal

Ito ang route na pinuntahan ko kahapon.. Kasama ang aking friends! :)
Madami din akong nakitang bago..
Bagong lugar..
Bagong tao..
Tulad nlang yung tricycle driver na over sa pgtulong samin para makakuha ng jeep papunta dun sa mismong venue..
Yung guard na wagas kung makakalabit. haha!

Ang saya..
Parang ayoko na nga lang matapos yung araw na yun kasama sila! :D
Yung bawat saya, ngiti, at hagalpak ng bawat naming tawa..
Parang ayoko na lang isipin kung ano ng mangyayari sa kinabukasan..
Parang gusto ko tumigil na lang yung oras.. Kasama SIYA.. Kasama sila..

Pagdating namin sa lugar..
Kanya-kanyang bihis na..
Kuha ng litrato dito..
Kuha ng litrato doon..
Ngiti dito..
Ngiti doon..
Pose dito..
Pose doon..

Habang nagbibihis yung iba..
Naghahanda naman ako para sa mga kakainin namin..
Bukas ng tupper ware dito..
Tupper Ware doon..
Pagtapos nilang magayos at magbihis..
Kumain muna kami ng hapunan bago lumusong sa tubig..
Ramdam ko yung lamig..
Nanunuot sa katawan ko..

Maya-maya nagulat kami..
"umuulan ng yelo" sigaw ko. Sabay tawa.
May nanggugulo sa gabing hinintay ko..
Ang daming bato rin ang nagliparan nun..
Tawa kami ng tawa..
Sabi namin..
It's a sign!
sign na wag na nating ituloy.
Sabay tawa..

Maya-maya habang kumakain..
Nagaasaran kami..
Lumipat ako ng pwesto para makakuha ng maayos..
Para maabot ko na rin yung kanin..
Lahat kmi pagod sa biyahe..
Gutom..

Nakasabay ko siya na kumuha ng kanin..
Asaran parin kami..
Hanggang sa naramdaman ko nalang na yapos na niya ko..
Habang tumatawa..

Aaminin ko..
Iba ang dating sakin ng yakap nyang yun..
Sa tagal naming magkaibigan..
Nung gabing lang yun xa naging ganun sakin..

Aaminin ko..
Bumalik yung nararamdaman ko sakanya..

Aaminin ko..
May spark akong naramdaman..

Nang matapos na kaming kumain..
Lusong na sa tubig yung iba..
Pero ako..
Hindi muna..
Nagmuni-muni muna ko kasama ang dalawa kong best friend..
Picture muna kami..
Bonding..

Tapos..
Inaya ko na silang magswimming narin..
Pumayag sila..
Ang lalim pala..
Hindi ko abot.
Isang tapak ko lang..
Pwede na kong malunod.
Kaya umupo na lang kami sa gilid kasama yung iba..

Sa haba ng oras naming nkalubog sa tubig..
Isa-isa na rin kaming umahon at kumain ulit..
Habang yung iba bumalik sa pool..
Siya, ako at si Regg ay nanatili na lang na nakaupo habang tintignan sila..
Pagtingin ko sa likod..
Tulog na rin pala sina Jess at Jeffrey..
Pagtingin ko sa kanan ay tulog na rin pala si Regg..

Nagtanong ako ng oras sakanya..
"1 yata" sagot nya..
Tsaka ako humanap ng magandang pwesto para makaidlip ng konti at makabalik sa pool maya-maya..
Nang makahanap na ko..
Bigla siyang nagsalita..
"pahiga ha?"
at dumantay siya sa aking mga balikat..

Aaminin ko..
May naramdaman ako..
Aaminin ko..
Kinilig ako..
Aaminin ko..
Bumalik yung nararamdaman ko sakanya..

Nagusap kami..
Habang nakahiga siya saking mga balikat..
"tara! kwentuhan nalang tayo"
sabi nya..
Nagkwento siya ng mga nangyayari sakanya, sa eskwela..

"ang gulo nga ng prof na yun eh.. Kaya dito nalang kami nagovernight.. Umaga na rin ako nakauwi.. Hnatid ko pa kasi si ________"

Nung oras na yun..
Natigilan ako..
Aaminin ko..
May kirot akong naramdaman..
Aaminin ko..
Masakit..
Aaminin ko..
Nagselos ako kahit hindi naman dapat..
Kahit alam kong mali..
Hindi ko alam kung anong isasagot ko..
Kung tatanong ko ba kung sino si kaye..
Kung magkukunwari nalang ako na nakatulog habang nagkkuwento siya..
Natahimik nalang ako..
Natahimik na rin siya..

*sana hindi nya nahalata*
sabi ko sa isip ko..
SANA..

Hindi pa rin kami naguusap..
Nakahiga lang siya sa balikat ko..
Hanggang sa naisipan kong lumayo muna saglit..
Ginising ko yung bestfriend ko para umikot muna..
Habang yung iba nasa pool..
Nagkakatuwaan..
Inaya ko na rin yung bestfriend ko na magpalit na..
Pumayag naman siya..

Sandali lang din nung umahon silang lahat..
Nagpalit na rin sila..
Naidlip muna ko habang hinhintay sila..
Pag gising ko..
Hindi pa pala lahat sila tapos na..
Kaya umupo muna ko tsaka binaba ang ulo para makaidlip ulit..

Umupo nalang ako nung hindi na ko makaidlip pa..
Dumating n siya..
Natapos narin siyang magayos..
Umupo siya sa tabi ko..
Nakita niya sigurong inaantok ako kaya pinahiga niya ko sa mga bag muna..
Pinatong niya yung bag ng bestfriend ko sa bag ko tsaka siya sumenyas na humiga na ko..
"magandang ideya"
yun nalang ang nasagot ko..

Nahiga ako sa mga bag na yon..
Pero ang totoo hindi talaga ko natulog..
Pinakiramdaman ko lang siya kung babantayan niya ko habang nagbibihis yung iba..
Sinisilip-silip ko siya..
Nagbabantay siya habang may kausap sa phone..
Gusto kong tumayo dun.
Gusto kong itanong kung sino yun..
Pero hindi ko magawa..
At wala rin akong karapatang gawin..

Maya-maya..
Hinawakan niya ko..
Pinatong nya ang mga kamay nya sa balikat ko na parang sinasabing..
"'wag ka mag alala babantayan kita"

Sandali lang nun..
dumating na sila..
Maingay nanaman..
Pero nakahiga parin ako..
Naramdaman ko nalang na inangat ako ng bestfriend ko..
Dumilat ako..
Pagtingin ko..
Babasahin lang pala nila kung ano yung nakalagay sa t-shirt ko..
Humiga ulit ako..
Sa sandaling yun..
Sa mesa ako nakadantay..
Kinuha nya yung kamay ko..
"kawawa naman si jheng.. Higa ka na ulit dito"
Sabi nya..
Sabay kuha sa balikat ko para ihiga ako ulit sa mga bag..
Hanggang sa maihiga niya ko ng maayos ay nakahawak pa rin siya sa mga balikat ko..

Aaminin ko..
Naramdaman ko yung concern niya..
Aaminin ko..
Mali na..

Habang nakadantay ako sa mga bag..
Ramdam ko na gusto niyang hawakan ang mga kamay ko..
Hanggang sa umuwi na kami..
Iniisip ko parin kung dapat bang ganun ang isipin ko sa mga ginawa niya?
O msyado ko lang nilagyan ng kahulugan ang mga iyon?

Meron siyang ibang mahal..
Pero gusto ko siya..
Ano bang magagawa ko?
Wala naman, hindi ba?
Kundi hayaan nalang na mawala ulit tong nararamdaman na to..
Hahayaan ko nalang na ang pnahon ang magsabi kung kelan dapat ko siyang mahalin..
Yung tama na..
Yung hindi na mali para sakin..
At para saknya..

Kung mababasa man niya to..
Sigurado akong malalaman niya na kagad na siya ang tinutukoy ko dito..
At hindi ko rin naman alam kung magugulat siya o matatawa..
Basta alam ko..
Mawawala na rin naman to..
Siguro..
Naging sabik lang ako masyado..
Dahil sa tagal na hindi ko siya nakita..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AWd6yyMkFuI

Casey Mania :D

I was once a fan of American Idol since season 03..
'Cause that is the season where I knew Guy Sebastian who sang my favorite song.. "Angels Brought Me Here"
Then, I continue watching it.. Except from Guy.. I don't find any interesting person right after season 03.. Then, Season 08 comes where Allison Iraheta and Adam Lambert came.. I become a big fan..

And now, another guy comes who made me really not just big but a huge huge fan of American Idol..

Casey James is from American Idol Season 09..

He's a great and amazing guitarist..
He's lovable (that's why I'm so in love with him! :) )
He's so beautiful..

What I love the most with this guy is his hair.

Simon Cowell often called him "goldilocks" because of his pretty hair! haha!
I absolutely love his eyes.. It's like an angel.. I mean, just like Andrew said.. every time he's performing then, the lights are at his back he's just like an angel.. Ü
And I thought that was true! :)

All casey fans.. Are with me! Right guys? lol

Well, anyway.. I'm hoping he'll not be eliminated because if he do.. I won't anymore watch American Idol.. lol
Just Kidding.. But seriously, I'm hoping he'll not be eliminated 'cause he's just so awesome! I LOVE HIM! :)

Let's all support him!
though, I can't vote him.. 'Cause I'm not from America. haha!lol

Angel's Cry..

Past? It's unchangeable.. Move On..

I now definitely believe to this saying..
Noon kasi tanga pa ko, pero ngayon okay na ko..
So much better..
Namulat na ko katotohanan na mali talaga.
Maling-maling na nakipagbalikan ako sakanya, na sinabi kong mahal ko pa siya..
Nagmukha akong tanga..

Pero ngayon..
WALA NA..
I'm so much better without her.. Yes HER! (alright. I used to be a bi.. But now, I'm straight.. I decide to become straight. Confused? Don't mind me either)
I'm okay..
I'm fine and now, I can stick to my words..

Tama sila..
This is just a part of growing up..
A part of being teenager, part of maturity..
I learned from it.
At least now, I can confidently say "I MOVED ON", I need to wake up from that sweetest dream of my life and FACE reality.

The only word, I guess, that I wanted to say is that "I LOVED YOU".
And yes! we're done. I accept.
Hindi ako bitter.
I don't feel any anger. :)

Instead, I want to say Thank You..
Thank you for teaching me how to be strong, how to be a better person, and how to love forbiddenly..

Sept. 04,2005~
This must be the weirdest day ever happen to my life.. I loved a wrong person at a wrong time..

Oct.13,2005~
First day when she gave me a letter..
I found it corny but sweet..
Treasured!

SG~
This was a Combo Attack in an Online Game.. And she gave a meaning to it.. Our first names.. :)

A dolphin necklace~
This is one of the reason why I loooooovvveee dolphins.. First gift from our first monthsary..
Treasured!

The song I'll never go~
This was her first song for me.. And I wanted her to thank for that.Ü

Maniwala ka Sana~
Kanta ng PNE.. Sabi nya kasi bagay daw sa sitwasyon namin noon..

Ako'y sayo at Ika'y akin~
Madalas nyang kantahin to sa labas ng corridor habang nakaupo at nakatingin sa langit.. Emo much..

Feb.05~
Nakipagbreak ako sayo.. 'Cause I thought it isn't right..

Kahit pinagtatawanan ako ng mga kaibigan ko. Ayos lang. Kasama yun eh. Kahit sarili ko nga pinagtatawanan ko na eh.

I love you and I forever will..
Wala na rin akong hinihinging kapalit sayo..
Tapos na tayo..
Tapos na ko sayo..
Wala ng ikaw...
Wala ng TAYO.. :)

Salamat sa lahat!
I know you're already happy with your life & I'm happy for you..:)

I won't say goodbye, rather.. See you soon.

I'LL LET YOU FLY NOW MY LITTLE BUTTERFLY.
I'LL LET YOU FIND YOUR OWN HAPPINESS & FIND MINE AS WELL.

Thank you for giving me a chance to love & to be a part of you :)
Thank you and See You Soon.. SG..Ü

Goodbye doesn't always mean forever..

Remember GOODBYE, Doesn't always mean FOREVER..

The moment I heard this song I got misty eyes.. I don't know maybe because of one of my best friends..
I missed her so much.. =(
And then I accidentally saw the date at that very moment
March 23, 2010..

5mos. ago she pass away..
I keep on asking Him, WHY?
WHY her?
Why not other?
Why not those criminals?
But still I'm the one who answered those questions..

Maybe, it's already her time..
Maybe GOD wants her to go back where she really belongs..
And then I found myself crying..
Crying so hard..

I can't explain how much I miss her..

She's a gift..
Not only for me but also for all the people who love her..

I don't know now how to move one..
My boyfriend (literally a GUY friend) told me that I should let go of her BUT for god sake! How would I do that if we became best friends for almost like 7years? =(
I don't want to throw that 7years just like that. It's hard.
Really hard.

"bud, don't forget about us! We're still here for you.. We all love her but we gotta do what's best for her and for us as well.. We have to let her go..
It's hard yea, it's never been to easy to let go of someone who already a part of you but we have to."


Those words awaken me. I realized how much she'll be happy if we do it.
If we just accept everything..
Though it's hard. I know right, but we're all be getting used to it.

And now, wherever you are my dear friend..
Thank you =(

Thank you for sharing you smile, your laughter, your sadness, your tears, & your dreams to us..

I'll never say bye 'cause I know we'll see each other again.. Maybe, not now but soon.. In the right place and in the right time..

I LOVE YOU AND I FOREVER WILL.. =)

I made this You-tube video for her..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qarHlTFCCV4